Hell Week

So it is the week of finals and I just finished my last one. It was for math so it wasn't that bad. I get to go home tomorrow and see my family for awhile- I miss them a lot I am glad I get to go home. After I go home tomorrow my family and I get to leave for Deleware. My brother is wrestling in Beast of the East with my high school team, THE Reynolds Raiders. We kick ass in wrestling!!

Now total diffferent topic...
Why am I still confused about things... and why are things stiil not making me happy... or why do I always have to worry about things? I still think about things and I know that he does too, but he would never admit that to me. And I don't want to care that he does, but I am not going to lie it makes me angry, upset, nervous, and worried. What if this not really what he wants and he is just telling me the samething again. Is it true once a cheater always a cheater? I want to say no, but I don't know. I know that he has loved before and it is possible that he could love again. But am I the one he really wants to love or is it somone totally different, is it even my friend? He may say the nicest most sweetest thing I have ever heard but, should I believe it... Do I want to believe it. Do I want to trust him, but why should I not. There are so many things I have to think about over break. Do I want to get hurt, again? I never said I wanted things to end as fast as they began, but they may have started way before it ever should have. This can be the best or worse thing for me, something I really need to think about.

Anyway, I want to leave on a good note, The sun will rise on a better day.

Much Love to all